right now all i know is i am going through hell
and i don’t know if my feet can carry me

he wrote a whole book on this spiral
this descent away from sanity
but it wasn’t an instruction manual for
how the hell to survive

i built this purgatory myself
but they took it over before i finished
and made it something i can’t navigate

i am blind and afraid and growing weaker every day
what i would give to see the sky again, the sky, the sky

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wish me luck.

xx,
Meg