“When the Candle Goes Out”

I wanted so badly to be yours.
I wanted to be something you
wanted to keep. But these are not decisions
we can make for other people.

I will love you forever, even if
right now, I don’t very much like you
or the way you’ve made me feel.
But I will love you,
because you were what I needed
and I like to think I was what you needed, too,
to get to these places we are now,
even if they are not next to one another.

I wanted to stay there forever.
But if it wasn’t meant to be,
then something else is.

—

Sometimes I wonder if there will ever be a last letter, or if this is something I will think about my whole life long. I am still learning how not to be bitter. I am still learning to be grateful for who we were to one another, even when we are no longer. One poem, one day, at a time.

Today is the six month anniversary of Ocean Growing. It would mean the oceans to me if you would read it.

All my heart.

xx,
Meg.